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Me. I turn on 21 January 7, 2009. I am a sunny island native stuck in a place that snows.

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An Extraordinary Friend of Mine

About 2 weeks ago, I took the same bus 157 home with chiew yee and *. They were both in their pe attires because they just finished pe.

After we boarded the bus and sat down, * suddenly said, "I dont like to expose my legs." And she began wearing the njc skirt. Chiew Yee and I thought it was the end of her dressing in public. However, it wasnt. To our horror, she started removing her striking red hot fbt from under her skirt. We looked on with disbelief and tried to stop her by telling her that undressing in public is indecent! She kept giggling while we were shaking our heads vigorously in disapproval. All this while, a man in his early fifties, sitting several seats behind, was shaking his head and smiling to himself like * was some kind of stupid entertainer. To top it off, he came up to me before he alighted and said, " Mr. Bean did that before
too." Anyway, she successfully removed her red fbt.

Moral of story: ONLY TRY ABOVE-MENTIONED STUNT AT HOME.

btw, if u still dont know and really want to know who exactly is this stuntwoman, feel free to contact her manager, me. :)

A busy and happy day

WoohOox.. i got 150% improvement for my fmaths test. As i predicted i did get a different grade, I got 10/25 or 40%. Its near to a pass.

After school which is about 5, me and shuheng went to buy joanne prezzie. Two not very decisive and artistic people resulted in a "loso" discussion about colours. Bought all our stuff finally and went to eat at bk only around 8. Heng and I discovered that we both have common liking for green tea and slight dislike for coke! And two not very healthy people who cannot commit themselves to healthy dieting devoured french fries and onion rings.

Overall very pleased with our efficiency indeed! Her birthday is still 3 days away, hence leaving us with ample time to wrap it over and over again? Hahax

to chong: get well soon! i think i caught the sore throat.. bahx
to craig: i actually think he will make a big wooha tmr.. but i am always ready to squirm back to my rightful position. i am perfectly ok with 1sts or 2nds. i perfectly ok with changing my section 2 that is if he ever allows.
to taggers: thanks for bothering to tag.. i did feel better seeing them. :)

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I wonder if there are any band pple reading my blog over the weekend to see how i reacted internally to what happened to me in band today. The title says it all.

It affected me more than i thought it would.

"How come you're here?"

I really wonder how i was supposed to react to that. Maybe he expected me to smile and say, " To play for you." I obviously did not. I still had a bit of brain left in me to tell me not to and a little respect for him to convince myself that he didnt mean what he said. Maybe he was simply too caught by surprise.

I admit that i am lousy. But a transfer from 2nds to 1sts does not show an advancement. It doesn mean that 1sts have better players. Hence, this justifies my appearance on the first row of chairs. And I wonder how he will react when he realises on wednesday that craig is in 2nds.

After band, the people who did give a damn about how i felt, came to talk to me. Most sympathise, some empathise. Some even felt pissed for me. wow. Me? I only felt humiliated. So, I rather say what i think i ought to feel.

Maybe i was supposed to get enlightenment and achieve some kind of music nirvana cause i finally know my own standards, disappointed because he thinks i not worth a seat in 1sts in his band or even happy cause he noticed that i even moved or existed.

It was when I went to alumni band practice that I realised i was very much affected by he did and said. Because i remember that no matter how lousy i am, ms chan will never highlight my inability. I am not comparing whose better. But I was much lousier back in rv. Yet she never picked on my inability. My senior too. She even praised my senior for attitude. "It doesnt matter how good you are, its the attitude."

Maybe, I should not make so much out of 5 words and write hundreds on them. But the people who tell me how they interpreted the 5 words he said just reaffirmed that i wasnt suffering from paranoia. It was how a normal functioning human should react.

to yunru: but i still think u shld join band.

Time

When u get the lowest for maths in class, you will realise that you are not just dying. You are helplessly dead. Then again, if you are dead, you dont really care anymore. First it was single digit. Then it is lowest in class. In fact, i am only 1 mark higher than the lowest in level. 4/25 That is for sure F. Because i can use my fingers and toes to count my percentage.

Honestly, I was never smart. Look at those smarties who ace their O levels subjects with zero assistance from tuition. I am not one of them. I thought i could be. I guess 16% goes to show i can never be. Still, I will never go back to tuition again unless i fail all 4 subjects cause by then it would not be an option. Parent intervention. And that's also why i am in njc anyway.

24 hours is enough. Others can live with it and so can I. Its just that i lack discipline. And also intelligence. I failed to recognise that i am not a genius. Doing minimal tutorials and sticking to my stupid principle of not copying homework didnt buy me a pass. I suddenly realised that copying homework is good. At least you have a set of answers to refer to when u need to study for your tests. Maybe i should start copying.

I think i gonna get a better grade for the next maths test. Or should i say a different grade for the next maths test.